Audience of 99; response to @abcdefghijkay in losing a sister because according to her she isn't worthy or holy enough

On Twitter: @abcdefghijkay said something like...

lost a sister today. me and marlon has been removed from every social networking site. that's fine. i guess i'm not holy or worthy enough (she forgot i had 2 twitter accounts, i guess, and i was just about to remove her from that one too and saw the post)


@abcdefghijkay no Kay im not worthy o u-u told me 2day how bad i m n was rembr? how you hope chloe grows up to hate me bc of all i try to do

im left so i don't have to offend you by being me. o worry that u will be talking about me still like u do about others

i respect your opinions n you don't respect mine.live n let live. audience o One. I live my best 4God. Sorry that offends u


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Do you really feel that way? The feeling of unholy and unworthy came about how? Because every day of my life I wake pray and walk to be the best for God, so to you that means I'm being too holy that you're unworthy? Who am I? I am no one. I'm not perfect nor front as one but i have no shame trying to be better

Could it be perhaps that is self imposed and you see that way because I live where nothing you hold on to is the same thing I hold on to. In other words, different. I cut you off because i don't need you to critique and scrutinize my every move from now on as you have been from all you've said today. It does nothing for my spiritual growth. Family is family by action, not by title. And I didn't need to stay around to see what else you will write indirectly about me as you routinely do about others. That is you and I do not build a perception of me by the way you live nor do I plan to. I do not need to stay on here or around so I or you can find a one-up against the other. You are still a human being and wont drag you in the mud.

I meant to keep this a private affair but since you twiterred it all to your 99 followers, i just had to set this only one straight. anything you say after this...truth or lie... be it. again, Jesus is my audience. May He strike me down and no one else. i have my peace and lack of bitterness in the bones and wish you only the very best in love life and marriage career. You really tried to make me out a loser because I chose God's calling for my life of a simple stay at home mom with too many college degrees, yet I pray for you to prosper in all you do. I have nothing but love towards you.

i didn't delete you because im mad. i merely kept positive and well meaning people to the best of my knowledge. and you weren't the only one deleted. the deletion of anyone was not about you. i just realized that anyone i don't even exchange words with, not even on facebook, i took out with no malice or offense in mind. you and marlon are one. i respect that he is yours and don't need to risk you or anyone making another assumption that im trying to divide to have more "friends". quality over quantity. high number of "friends" to talk bad about and by is not the way to go, anyway. in return for you hurting me like you do to others verbally behind their back is not worth having lots of "friends" for.

And no I am not like you as you said in the text regarding about being upfront. If you were upfront, you would have told me you didn't want to watch Chloe. I asked you everyday weeks and days before you started if you wanted to watch her. I had people in line - I told you. Just be upfront so i can plan. I sensed you didn't want to. But no, you were not upfront. You could not tell me upfront. Two and half weeks, I had to send you home.

And if you were upfront like me, you would tell certain friends how you really feel about them/what bugs you so badly and/or what you really don't want to do for them instead of keeping shut to them and yet blabbing them to me and/or lying to their face. I know you hated it when i would give you advice with things you should do (other than venting) and would not do, see a different perspective on your views, don't side with you, playing devils advocate and even siding with them in what you claim they really are, and encouraging them too just as i encourage you.

Now you go lying to them that I think of you unholy and undeserving of me? I've had people who did that in my past... they no longer are in my life bc I don't like that and I choose to keep it that way. But you are my sister by blood so i tolerated it but it was never right. That's what family do: tolerate. But with all this, toleration is over. I have been the target of your issues and i don't want to see it. I merely state here all this because everyone deserves more than one side to a story from someone who is upfront. Regardless of what you will do, I will continue in love and prayer. Life is so much bigger than all this. I will not be stifled. I will not be sad.

thank you for the help but no thanks on the defaming and twisting of truth. the truth is you weren't doing your job on several accounts..... i gave and gave in every way but you wanted more $ and you lashed out because i told you that you weren't even doing your job. i could go on and on in detail about job performance as you went into criticising me: my home, my wifehood, my childhood, my adulthood, my husband, my everyhing. and no i was not being cheap. it was never about the money, there is $2500 the account i need to use up towards sitting or i lose it. i prefered it was you. it was about the job performance - not you as a person - it was not about you until you brought on the character attack on my past present future and every aspect of my life. yes i should have stayed shut, but i defended instead.

it's fine that you still see the old me and used it to rip me up today. and you are free to keep doing so because you can and i won't even know because i'm not around. i know you've told people my past. it is what it is. not proud of it. i don't dwell in it and i'm moving up and moving forward as fast as i can the best i know how. we can always be better regardless where we came from and how good one already may be. if anything was my mistake, it was me trying to get others on board who don't want to be. sorry i can't help not sharing what's amazing in my life. sometimes i feel like i just discovered something and want others to have the joy to - not to show off or look down - but to share. if that made me so wrong in your eyes and you choose to say bad about me, then you do. just know that all of our present actions is a reflection of us, the condition of our heart, and what takes place in the future are simply fruits of what is planted. i only wish for you amazing fruits as you cursed my life today.

to disconnect was to make it easier on the both of us, im stepping down and stepping out from where it was today. finally i got it.... who was i to think i was immune to your wrath. if those around and closer to you aren't, why me?

All day I've prayed, shed lots of tears, and prayed, God create in me a clean heart and my true friends (yes i can count in my hands) who knew nothing of all this did not question what or why, no gossip or story, just that i am in pain, God has a plan, I hear His voice, it hurts and I need divine comfort and they simply prayed. and before this day ended, i felt this peace blanket over me, peace towards everything, my decision to cut, my future situation, and unexplainable love for you. I know it sounds cuckoo crazy but it is true. Not exaggerating, not boasting. It is truth.

I'm sorry you feel that you are not holy enough or worthy; do not use others as a measuring stick. it's no way to live life. but there is no fighting with how you feel or will feel. We all feel what we feel. But a true mark of a person is acting on what is right despite it.
I am not here to change your mind. I;m not here to prove that you are wrong about me either. I just wanted to clarify and let you know that there is no need for anything but positive feelings, learning a lesson and a need to move past this already. I'm sorry you are so against my forgiven past (which by the way you have so skewed/altered or completely flat out wrong), my current lifestyle, my personality. I am sorry for nothing else.

Current Sunday Series @ The Rock

Prayer is the most powerful way to communicate with God.

He desires to deepen His relationship with us through prayer. In this 8-week series, Pastor Miles explains what prayer is, how God wants to answer our prayers, and what hinders God from hearing our prayers. "I'm too busy." "I just don't know how." "God doesn't really hear our prayers." Whatever our excuse might be, the reality is we often do not take time to pray.

We can communicate with God through actions, like a child sending blow bubbles into the sky. These actions are messages to Him about how much we trust and love Him. He communicates with us through actions as well. The bubbles coming from God not only contain information, but the heart-transforming character of God.

Whether it is patience while sitting in traffic, financial help, or a sick loved one, we all have situations that God wants to use to make us more like Him. Join us as we take a deeper look at the life-transforming power of prayer.

In response to "Is our Gospel Becoming too Social?"

I understand the concern, but I gotta play devils advocate on this one too.

1) People don't care what you know until they know you care.
2) People aren't asking if Christianity or God is real, they're asking if they want to be like you.

The Rock and other churches get alot of **** for being "too social." Could it be that they understand these two concepts and because of it evangelizing, change and growth in people's lives has been tremendous? Could it just be?

Not until churches understand and strike a balance in this arena, they are selling God and His people short. There are too many churches who push religion and getting saved one's dry throat (by unsolicited talk) without considering that doing this does more bad than good and opens even more ridicule and contempt against the "faith." Be social... and see what happens.

1) Why sit there and criticize us when you could be doing something. Criticism is not a fruit of the spirit
2) We don't shove or talk Christianity, we live it by going into the world living and leading by example.
3) People who don't go into churches can only be reached by its people going out from them.
4) We do share the gospel in every chance we get-words and actions.
5) We are not trying to be like the non-profits, the church has failed to do what they have been called; making room for NPs

Please Vote for Chloe. Winning prize will go to US Navy Sailor

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I have 6 Figures...

So I used to say, one day I'd like to have 6 figures...

So how funny when I realize last night that I have...

6 figures in debt =/ (months of being unemployed, rent, school loans, bills, fun money, and just-because-I-feel-like-it-spending)


Of course this is not funny and nothing to be boastful or brag about...

Miles yesterday said that we all have a story and we go through things so that we can help others with our story... so here I go.... hope this can help someone else out there...

Listening to Dave Ramsey last night on the radio, I decided to look into our financial picture again. We have been on the DR plan but have relaxed a bit after being able to live on what we have on hand and no longer swiping Credit Cards. We paid off $12,000 in credit card balance within 3 months. That is HUGE as we lived on credit cards for our needs... but honestly for some enjoyment, too! We also have $1000 stashed for emergency, just as DR says to do - another huge as we used to bounce on our account for over withdrawing of money. Then with these accomplishments, came the "Oh, we're not so bad anymore, let's spend a bit." Big big NO NO!!!

So last night, I wrote the guy. With the hundreds of emails that he gets, I don't know if I will ever get a response. I'll post that letter at the very end of all this to give you a chance to respond to it.

So anyway, during our couples devotion today, I shouted out, "Open the bible to Psalms 107 (amount of debt money we have), there night be a message"... sure enough... as I read it out loud to the hubby, I smiled and I cried through it all (prtty long chapter)... but just the perfect message for someone who faces that mountain of debt. You must read it for yourself to appreciate it.

It brought peace to my heart. God is still so soooooo good! We racked up the bills and He provides comfort! It sucks to admit that I/we did this to ourselves. Even the period of unemployment was our choosing. But God proves that He is here regardless and He shows himself in the most unexpected ways. If 107k was not the number, I would not have received that comfort and blessing that my husband and I needed most.

So what should be your take away from this?

Be wise with your spending.
Be wiser with your non-spending and plan.
Cut up your credit cards. Live within your means (cash).
Trust God to deliver you from your bondage - whatever it may be. Ours is $ debt. What is yours?

Comedienne Carol Leifer Vs. Pastor Miles McPherson Debate Gay Marriage [Larry King]

Pastor Miles McPherson appears on the Larry King Live show (CNN). Miles will be Larry's guest for a segment along with Carol Leifer. Carol is a stand-up comedian who has appeared on many national shows. She has a same-sex partner, and they have adopted a child. Discussion topic: yesterday's California Supreme Court decision to uphold Prop 8.




Some people like to play it "safe" or neutral for personal gain or avoid anything negative or even discomfort. Like I've said before, I prefer those who have an open opposing opinion and act on it over those who claim to believe but does nothing. The one who acts is the more believable, are they not? And while people like the Gov. don't want to "impose" his opinion while so called FOR traditional marriage, there are those who positively do impose their opinion for same sex marriage and other issues (ie. Sonia Sotomayor openly admits doing this in her court judgments)...

How convenient for the Gov and all those who say his same words, right?

The reality is, everything we do or say imposes one something on another. It's just a matter of who acts on them which results in one side more dominant than the other.

Regardless, I ♥ watching both sides of an issue in such a civil and polite manner. I learn, we learn, and America will be better.

Freedom of Speech and Right to Protest No Longer a Right?

taken from: http://texasdarlin.wordpress.com/2009/05/16/80-year-0ld-priest-arrested-for-peacefully-protesting-obama-at-notre-dame/

Right to Life: Sarah Palin

taken from: http://www.conservatives4palin.com/2009/05/bristol-palins-choice.html